Lockee

Kia Ora Koutou

My beautiful angel entered the world and the world became unknown and unexpected. Being a single parent I suppose I knew it was going to take its toll on me. The first few months were so hard. At times my tears were unstoppable and appeared for no reason at all. I allowed myself to have low days.

At the same time my daughter, Lockee gave me strength. Each day as I look at her, she gives me joy, laughter and happiness.

Whanau and family asked if I would like to move home, as I don’t have any Whanau in the area. I know they were looking out for the best interest of both of us. I know that having them around would be great, but I wanted to do this the hard way (not knowing how hard it was going to get!!) on my own.

They accepted my decision and I know that, being the loving caring and supporting Whanau that they are, they will be there unconditionally.

I’ve also been helped by the support of friends, support agencies and a great medical team being there for my daughter and me. Without them I don’t know where I would be.

In the early months her medical conditions were just jargon medical talk and a big blur. It wasn’t until she got a lot older that the jargon and blurs started to sound like medical terms I could understand and that I wanted to read about.

Lockee lives an everyday, normal life instead of being treated like a child with something tagging behind her. Our first year has just flown by and we have become both mother and daughter and “buddies”.

I have allowed us to accept the challenges. I see each day as an achievement and a learning point for us to grow together.